I was just watching a video and thought of the reason why I decided to do the things I’m doing now. I decided to write because I needed to change my circumstance. My life hasn’t always been easy, but not everything is perfect. I became an author, because I thought I could do something different.
I thought of doing something to change everything in my life for the better. I wanted to prove to myself that I could do anything. I needed to bring every thought out into the space of pages. I read through comments that you have to be special to write or create any type of art. I thought ok.
I heard that you have to be well trained to do anything when it came to art so I thought alright. I heard you have to take courses to become a speaker about positive thinking so I thought well I can say anything positive. I have been living a positive life since I can remember.
I always wanted to write a book so I did. I wanted to publish my photography so that people could see my work and I could make some money. I have published my photography. I began to think I wondered if I could draw things even if it’s with some help from every day objects. I have published my art work in books now.
Was it easy? No. It was hard work. Was I scared? Yes a little. I have always been afraid of the things I have thought of. I was always afraid of taking that step forward to achieving anything. I was always afraid of not doing anything right or wrong. I guess this was my only doubt.
Then I began to look at videos of people that did things even if they thought they would fail and it gave me confidence that I could do anything. All I had to do was think of what I wanted to do and find a way to share it with the world. So I decided to write and publish my work.
My work is not just about stories, photography or art. My work is about the fear of failure. My main reason for everything I do is to show the world that I have overcome the fear that comes with wanting success in this world. When you read my work or see my art it’s not just looking at photographs, art or words. It’s about how far I have come from the first time I began to publish my work.
I was also afraid of taking courses due to my learning disability, but I said one day forget about this fear. If anyone else can go to college so can I. I took most of courses through correspondence and succeeded. I graduated with Honors. I became a member of: Delta Epsilon Tau Honor Society. I never thought I would reach this standard, but have done so.
I look back and wondered why was I so afraid. I knew of my learning disability, but I guess I hadn’t researched everything that I wanted to do. Until one day when I got hooked on reading about things positive thinking and overcoming fears of failure.
I thought I’m very brave and I will prove this to myself. I did. I got so many F’s in school when I was growing up, but for some reason I thought these F’s don’t represent me as a person and what I want to do with my life. I had to think things through as a kid.
I learned that I was not such a little kid after all. I may have been young and underage, but still within myself I had an understanding that I was going to do something extremely big with my life. I just didn’t know what, but I knew that I will have to learn about it first.
If I would have let all of those F’s represent me as an adult I would have been a terrible failure in everything. I would not have begun writing about anything on any blog. This fear that I have overcome did not happen over night. I still remember waiting for the bus when I was in high school and when the rain was pouring I felt like an empty bag. I didn’t know what I wanted to do.
I knew there had to be something and it all began with a thought. What made me fear my own success or failure so much to not have tried earlier in life to pursue my educational goals or my career enthusiasm. Today I have achieved so much through fear and failures. I can’t stop now and won’t think of stopping.
This is the link of my fears and failures. I have overcome my fear so that I could share my work with the world through books.
My print books. My writings, photography, and art.